Our relationship was a good one, a little rocky, but alright. We had a lot of love, so I thought. He told me he would love me forever and I believed him. My parents did not allow us together. If I was talking to him and they knew, I would be grounded.
On my 15th birthday I lied about my destination and went to be with him. My cousin was dating his brother, so it was easy access. But my older sister showed up there at 12:30 at night, yelling at me to get into the car with her. I hesitated at first, then kissed my boyfriend good-bye. When I got home I was grounded. I had made varsity cheerleader my freshman year and my parents pulled me out. I was so mad, but still talked to him secretly.
I went away to Tennessee for my 16th birthday. A week after I came back, I found out he had cheated on me. I was crushed. I had said I would never forgive him if he ever did that, but when you are in love, everything changes. So I forgave him. He told me I gave him mixed signals and he was sorry and it wouldn’t happen again.
The turning point was in my heart. I decided that we really needed to let go for both of our sakes. At that time, he wasn't ready to be faithful and I wasn't going to wait around for him to be a man. So I ended it with a mix up. There is a LovePoetry poem called I love you and goodbye
by Megan Renee Gandee. It helped me so much and I read that almost every day.
I still thought about him and missed him all the time, even to this day. He was my first love. I do date but haven't let anyone close to my heart. I don't want to be hurt by anyone else if I have anything to do with it.
I am all about friends and school now. I have a lot of fun, without worries. I regret ever being friends with the girlfriend he is with now, because we were supposed to be friends. But I learn new things every day. I hope she reads this one day. She knows who she is.
I have advice for the girls who are going through a relationship by themselves. It isn't fun, is it? It hurts a lot and you blame it on yourself, but it is okay. The only way it is your fault is if it happens more than once.