We had a great relationship for the first month. We were really happy. He called every day and we hung out almost every weekend.
The break up was my fault. I became afraid when he told me he loved me and I started to hold back. For the second month of our relationship, we grew father apart and the holding hands stopped and he didnít call as often. I told him that we just werenít meant to be together, but now I know in my heart that we were. I think about him all the time. Not a day goes by that I donít wish he was thinking of me too.
The turning point was when I ignored him and he was expecting me to break up with him. The LovePoetry poem that really helped me get through this time was To My Unforgotten Love
by Jenna Lee Redmond. It really expressed how I was feeling and made me feel like someone else was going through this too.
I said that I wanted us to still be friends after this. A day later, he called and we talked for an hour on the phone about all the things we needed to improve on for our next boyfriend/girlfriend. The truth is that I hated talking about it, Ďcause I didnít want to think of him having any one other than me.
Since then, we say hey to each other on Sundays at church and occasionally, Iíll bring up a subject or two to talk about, but we donít talk much in person. The sad part is that we can only talk online and he says he misses me as a friend and he is here for me when I need him. But in my heart I really wish he would miss me for "us" and that we would get back together someday.
Please... if youíre scared because you think you'll get hurt later on, donít end it. It could last longer than you think. Always have faith in God to help you through any problem.