I was in love with my best friend but he had a girlfriend. He said that if he ever broke up with her he would go out with me... so I waited and waited- because I love him. I was happier when I was with my (now) ex boyfriend because when I was away from him I didn't have to always think about 'it'.... but soon I always thought about it.
It got to where I was almost always sad. I had been so chipper and hyper- so when I came to school so sad my friends sat down with me and asked what was wrong... even the guy I loved did. Amazingly I talked to the guy I was in love with. I told him I loved him and he said, "No you don't, ur a freshman and u do not know what ur feeling. u do not know me well enough to love me." My friend Becky told me I was depressed and then soon after I started going to a councilor every Wednesday... and it helped. I got help from Becky and the guy I love (I still love him) too.
LovePoetry helped a lot. I found it by writing a poem that was a lot like one of the ones on LovePoetry and someone accused me of copying- so I decided to check this site out. There was one poem that was similar in feelings to my poem but not exactly the same words but... the poem that caught my eye was
Should I Go? by Rachel Summer. It said exactly what I was feeling. I showed it to my friends and they got me to get help.
I am happier now and I am no longer that depressed and I saved my friendship with the one I love and he says he does not lead people on and that he does like me. What I did to improve my outlook was- I went to counseling to get help.
Whether or not you think you are depressed, if u feel sad about something- talk about it. Get it out and, also, if a friend says you are depressed... you just might be because they can see a lot from the outside that u can't.
