Why today did you have to come back here, 
allowing me to see you once again, 
to recall the feelings that I have drowned 
in the lake of heartbreak, to reappear.
 
Just as I was making progress you are here, 
in eyesight, you see me and smile. 
Looking at me with those intimadating, 
piercing, beautiful hazel eyes, 
I once fell in love with.

You keep walking and looking back smiling, 
but not saying a word, and I, simply in shock. 
When those doors opened and I saw you, 
I was speechless... I didn't need you to be there! 
I didn't need a reminder of what I  truly wanted 
but could not have!
I didn't need those heartfelt poems 
to play back in my ear over and over
as if it were a broken record player!!

But nonetheless, you ARE here, still standing arms reach 
but still say nothing. 
Females swarm you, constructing a crowd 
I didn't want to be a part of, 
so I continue to walk, each step harder for me to take, 
not taking this opportunity to tell you I MISS you, 
I LOVE you, walking not looking back to my lost hope for love.

I've tried to move on, but you being here 
is doing quite the opposite. 
Standing here I cry and ask why did I have to see you? 
Why couldn't I have taken an alternate route?
Just as I was moving on YOU show up! 
I was forgetting, my love was deteriorating, 
but has now come back to haunt me.
 
What is the reason I had to see him God. 
I know everything happens for a reason, but why today? 
Just a week from my acknowledgement that he could not be mine 
What is the harsh message, PLEASE, let me know, 
Because at this moment, I am drowned in the Lake of Heartbreak, 
trying to find my way to Land.