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Rest, Sweet Jasper, Rest
by Vivian Sue Cross
Rest, Sweet Jasper, rest. Your time on earth is done.
My heart is still aching for you, oh, my precious son.
I know you filled many hearts with your happy and joyful ways,
It still doesn't make life easier, even on the best of days.
Many said, "Life was your friend." I know that to be true,
I still can't find a way to live my life without you.
I'm trying to make myself believe you're the luckiest one of all,
You'll celebrate the birthday of Christ in person;
I know you'll have a ball.
Having you for a son was the best thing that could ever happen to me,
Giving you back to the Lord
was the sacrifice even I'm not yet able to see.
Knowing there is a reason for everything we do
Doesn't make life easier to be left on earth without you.
Jasper, my youngest son, I don't know quite how to say,
I can feel your presence with me, each and every day.
It's something that's unexplainable, only a Mother can feel.
You see, my son, you were filled with so much life and happiness,
Every minute spent with you was a thrill.
I know your many friends miss you, I can see it in their eyes.
I gave them Buffalo Nickel necklaces to wear,
to keep your memory alive.
I know you were the best of friends, for you were my best friend, too.
I still don?t understand why this had to happen to you.
I wish there were more like you, then life would be so much easier.
The hate and malice in this world would cease to exist,
And everyone would be friends with each other.
I don't know how to say this, only you would understand.
I wasn't ready to give you up, your life had just begun.
I'm sitting here by the fire,
thinking about the year that went by without you.
This has been the hardest year of my life,
something I never thought I would have to do.
The pain and the heartache I've had to deal with,
the gossip and the stares,
Are just drops in the bucket to the pain
of not having you here with me.
I've done what I know you would have wanted for me to do,
I've held my head up high and proud, just like I taught you to do.
I sometimes feel guilty for not keeping a better eye on you,
But many of your friends told me, they think I did what was best.
I wouldn't change the way I raised you, I don't think life is a test.
For, Jasper, you were always a free spirit, not like all the rest.
So Rest, Sweet Jasper, Rest.
Although I want you here with me,
I'm still not ready to give you up, but God has set you free.
You're free from all the heartache here, the unhappiness and the pain.
You're free to spread your joy and cheer in heaven,
maybe that was in God's plan.
I would never stand in the way of your happiness,
I've always wanted the best for you.
So please, God, give me the strength
to let me know your plan went through.
So Rest, Sweet Jasper, Rest.
Your time on earth is done.
You'll always be my greatest joy,
You'll always be my son.
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