My pillow is wet with tears
And my heart is broken
How could all this have happened?
How could I have let those words be spoken?

You were there when I needed you
That one horrible night
To make me feel better
When nothing went right

From when it first started
I thought it would be true
For me and you to be together
And for us to say, "I love you"

All I did was love you
I thought of you everyday
I didn't think you'd hurt me
I thought you would stay

Now I hear you're "working on someone"
And I know that someone isn't me
Because if it really was,
You'd be acting differently

I thought you loved me
I believed every word you said
But now that you're gone
I wish I was dead

I remember your letter
And how good it made me feel
I remember the ones I sent
And the kisses that were sealed

Why did you suddenly leave me
When everything was going right?
I'll never forget what it felt like
On what now seems like those worthless nights

I thought we could be really close
I thought we could at least be friends
I try to heal myself from all the pain
But when I think of you, it never ends

Will I ever hear from you again?
Have you found someone better?
I hate the thought of it
It makes me shudder

I remember last year
All the fun we had
Talking about certain things
I didn't think I'd be this sad

But you took that fun away
By leaving me alone
Not writing any letters
Or picking up the phone

Now I really don't know
What to think of everything that's happened
I didn't know you were like this
But the thought of it has me saddened

When you said we'd never lose contact,
I really did believe you
Now I am deciding
If I should show this poem to you

But then you left me
When I needed you most
You act like I don't even exist
You act like I'm a ghost

You only care about yourself
And not the people you're hurting
You go from girl to girl
Sweet-talking them and flirting

You played me as a game
And took me as a joke
But did you really know
That my heart had been broke?

But one day you will realize
What a jerk you've really been
I hope you feel so very bad
And never want to be seen

I still don't understand
How you could have done this
I don't know about you
But it's you I've always missed

Was it really worth it?
All the sadness and the pain
I don't know if it was
Or if I'll ever be the same

But I know that one day
I Will find someone better
Someone that wouldn't do this to me
Never... ever, ever

I think about the future
How it will be in a few years
When I think of you
Will my eyes still be full of tears?

So here I am
Sitting at home
Beside my tear-stained pillow
Writing this poem...