I never knew what pain was until that beautiful spring evening 
when the doctors came in and told us: 
"I'm sorry but we did all we could do".  
When they pronounced our angel deceased 
that was pain that I never knew what pain was.  
I never knew what pain was until her grandmother asked: 
"How's she doing?" that was pain that I never knew what pain was 
when I had to tell her Mama our angel is gone.  
I never knew what pain was until I learned that 
it was a careless drunk driver who chose to drive that evening and 
took the life of our 17 year old angel away from us.  
Oh, the stillness that filled the room when there was nothing we could do 
or say to comfort our loved ones or the emptiness that could not be filled 
because we knew the laughter with you was gone, 
or the beautiful smiles you shared with everyone would not shine anymore.  
I wonder if he knows the pain he has caused for 
your family, friends, and love ones.  
I pray that one day we can forgive him for this pain he left us with, 
just to learn that pain isn't pain until you learn what pain really is!


In precious memory of KaShawn Renee Botts:  June 18, 1982 - April 26, 2000.