I'd hate to contradict you 
but feel the dried blood 
covering my arm

I'd hate to lie to you 
but I do care
too much it seems

I'd hate to need you
but your grey sweatshirt
feels so familiar against my face

I'd hate to be mean to you
but I beat on your lying face
every night in my dreams

I'd hate to never see you again
but yet I avoid you
in every way possible

I'd hate to seem ok without you
but I brand a smile on my lips
and parade other guys

I'd hate for you not to love me
but it's too late for that