If only the world could be alcohol free
by JJ Smith
If only the world could be alcohol free,
Then I wouldn?t have to live my life in misery.
If there was no alcohol, I wouldn?t be treated like this.
I wouldn?t feel depressed all the time; I wouldn?t be hit.
I have too many problems with people who drink a lot.
I don?t want to grow up like that, to become something I'm not.
I have no way of dealing with my dad.
There are others out there like me; it makes me mad.
Why can't he see what he does to me?
Other people can see, so why can't he?
Maybe he doesn?t want to; maybe he can't take it.
I don?t know how much more I can take; soon I'm going to commit.
There?s no place I can go, no where to hide.
I can only sit there and take it, let it kill me inside.
I don?t know what to do, no where to turn.
I can only hope that one day he will never return.
This pain is hard on me, I'm so unstable.
Sometimes I wish my life was just a fable.
I dread when every night comes around.
I just wish I could be lost and never found.
Why must I live like this; why don?t I have a normal home?
Life is so unfair; some get all, others nothing. Why? It's unknown.
I see all my peers with smiles on their faces, and always happy.
I just play that role, put on those smiles and faces, but inside I'm unhappy.
I can't play those roles anymore.
Can I just be normal; is that too much to ask for?
It hurts me soo much that I have to deal with this condition.
It's not fair. I'm always in submission.
This battle is so hard to fight.
It will never be better; it will never be all right.
I can't wait till the day I can leave.
That day will give me so much relief, you can't believe.
Until that day I will continue to struggle.
There is no one here for me, no one to cuddle.
I have nowhere to channel this pain.
It's so hard to explain, I'm going insane.
To all of those out there who are like me,
I feel your pain. One day you too will be free.