you didn't call me last night
i was worried so i went by
i heard loud music
and then i knocked
you didn't answer 
and i went through the back

in your window there was light
i went up the stairs 
and there she was with you in the bed
both of you were high
and i just stood there and cried

you went to work early
you found me on your back porch 
with my eyes swollen from crying
(i didn't see you)
then i woke up
i saw you lying next to me
with your arms filled with blood
you left me a note
it said:

BABY, I KNOW WHAT YOU SAW LAST NIGHT 
PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU 
AND THAT I WAS JUST HIGH 
AND FOR HURTING YOU SO MUCH 
TODAY I DESERVE TO DIE 
I'LL BE WATCHING YOU FROM HEAVEN FROM NOW ON
I LOVE YOU

and now i'm here watching the sky 
with a knife in my hand 
about to commit suiside 
wanting to spend eternity by your side