Merde!
How can you penetrate my thoughts?
How do you seep into my heart?
How can you infringe on my emotions?
You went away!

You never want to come forward again!
You sucked the life from me!
You were my every thought!
All consuming!
I became part of your being!

How can you always step in and mess with my head?
When I start to see clearly,
You just fall in front of my eyes,
Like a memory not so far forgotten.
Any time I try to move on.
My love for you becomes overwhelming!
All consuming.

It bites me in the ass before I can take a breath!
Hang on!
I love too deep!
My mind says,
You are my love eternal.
No matter your denial towards me.

My heart still yearns for you.
You screwed me over!
I try to tell myself,
But I can?t find a clear path between twists and mistakes.

King and queen of crap we were.
But in the end,
I knew that I knew you best.
I don?t know what to feel anymore.
Just screwed and estranged.

I can?t convince myself I can love again.
When all I want, is the one who was prepared to love me forever,
Then left me!
The struggle goes on? year after year, after year.
God help me? because I can?t stop loving you.