How he hates me
You hate me is what you say
I love you is what I hear
The sight of my used-to-be-so-beautiful face
Now just another face
Tell me the truth
To hear my name makes your skin crawl
I love you and worship the ground that you walk on
But because I'm not the one
Nothing I do will ever matter
In my heart I know this
But still I try
Hoping and wishing that I can change your mind
My heart says that I'm being stupid
Spit in my face and dump on me while you're at it
Don't stop there, wipe your feet on me as if I'm a doormat
Mentally, Sexually, Physically, and Emotionally
I'm no longer here
Swimming, knowing I'm lying to myself
Drowning in an estacy of pain
Killing a person inside of me who would have loved me unconditionally
I feel like such a trader
To go against what I believe for someone who doesn't even know I exist
The scum on the bottom of his shoe
Or better yet, maybe his vomit inside the toilet
That's how much he hates me
