Numbness
I fought for us for the past year,
Calling, and hoping,
Every night that things would be all right.
I cried and yelled,
Lost faith and have failed.
I’ve tugged and pulled
Moved forward and have yet to yield.
Moved along stayed strong,
Fell apart,
Started to slip.
Was losing my grip
And beginning to fall.
Lost myself,
Now there’s nothing left of me,
nothing at all.
So tired and sore,
For giving so much effort and more.
No more tears left in my eyes,
My heart feels accustomed to the pain now
I don’t feel anything at all and it drives me insane.
My emotions have gone numb,
Solitude is all I seek.
Everything seemed to fall apart over the last week.
I've thrown my hands up into the air,
Cause when I needed you,
You were never there.
Waiting for you to act like a man,
Maybe do something for us,
Like taking a stand.
Never happening...
That’s what I failed to see,
Now there is nothing left of us,
Nothing left of me.
Looking so sad, I know you feel bad.
You finally came to see
What all my trying has done to me.
Hope you feel remorse
For never trying,
I’m looking for love, the right kind.
Part of me is still trying to hold on
To the memories that seem to be long gone.
But in the end I'll be ok
Because you can't lose something
You didn’t have anyway.
