A Moment
He walks in and smiles.
All I can do is the same.
I have no worries now.
Our eyes meet and I pause.
I think, “If only there was love in those eyes again,
I would be the happiest person.”
In that moment, the most joyful times of my life flash before me:
Everlasting gazes between the two of us,
Those few stray hairs he always pushed so carefully out of my eyes;
The gentle kisses he placed on my lips;
Long, tight embraces that I never wanted to end;
The way he said, “I love you!”
We could talk the night away about absolutely
nothing at all.
We always found that one spot on each other
that was always ticklish.
We would smile and laugh for hours.
I could not have had more fun than when I was with him.
He always knew exactly when and what was wrong with me.
He always knew exactly what to say and when to say it to cheer me up.
And that one song he always played that I acted like I hated,
I really loved.
He was so patient, caring, loving, strong,
faithful...and perfect.
In that same moment I am overwhelmed with sadness.
There are no more gazes.
Those few hairs stay in my eyes.
There are no more gentle kisses and no more tight embraces.
I no longer hear those three wonderful words.
There is no more talking and tickling or laughing and smiling.
For me, there is no more fun.
He doesn’t pay attention to when and what is wrong with me.
He never says those things to cheer me up.
And that song makes me cry my eyes out for hours
when I hear it, or think of its words.
All of those things.....he still is, but not towards me anymore.
Most of all he is still perfect.
He is who I want to be with for the rest of my life.
And nothing can ever change that.
I want to go through all of the good times
And bad times with him by my side.
I want to have his children
And grow old with him,
Sitting in front of a fireplace on a cold winter night.
I want all of this, but can’t have it.
He cares not a thing for me.
And I know he never will.
In that moment, my heart is crushed and broken.
The few hours he stays to be nice and visit,
I try to put on a front and act happy.
Time passes by quickly.
He leaves out the door.
I go to my room and cry.
I realize I truly love him and always will.
