Honesty
I need to tell you something,
But I don't know where to start.
How can I possibly say this
Without breaking your heart?
I've been thinking about us
And everything in between.
About how we'll be together again
When I turn sixteen.
I know I made a promise-
A promise to be there for you.
And believe me, keeping the promise
Is something I really want to do.
I thought I could stay committed,
I know I really tried.
But my heart tells me things have changed,
The heart never lies.
I feel we're drifting apart,
Going after things that aren't the same.
You want a long, steady relationship
While I want something simple and plain.
I want to be young like everyone else,
But what we have is tying me down.
I feel on the outside I'm wearing a mask
On the inside wearing a frown.
When I said I was falling in love with you,
I was saying it from my heart.
At the time I really wanted to love you
And for us to never part.
Everything was going well,
Then suddenly, something went wrong.
I began to have second thoughts
And felt I was leading you on.
Please believe me when I tell you
This isn't what I had in mind.
Maybe things would turn out differently
If everything happened at a different time.
I'm sorry if I hurt you,
That's not what I planned.
I just wanted to let it all out, gently
The best way I can.
I don't deserve to have your love,
You should save it for someone else.
A person as selfish as me
Should end up being by myself.
If I could change anything,
I'd rather be the one, who's feeling pain.
You don't deserve any of this,
I'm the one, who should be blamed.
I know you are disappointed,
I understand if you hate me.
I'm sorry for hurting you this way… this much,
It's all part of honesty.